#994
On a more personal not-so-awesome note.....when i sweat like a dirty russian in a sweatbox hole of a home. This heat and humidity truly shows how attractive the general public, including myself, really are on these gorgeous summer days. Foreheads shining, like headlights beaming upon that deer frozen in the middle of the highway. I'm surprised we don't all walk into one another as the glistening skulls can be seem for an atmospheric level.
It is ridiculous, and I hope it ends soon promptly.
Also, in regards to a constant not-so-awesome thing....when someone that I care the world of is on the other side of it. It is difficult, requires the utmost of patience (which I have never inhabited, this house of patience) and goes for an extensive period of time. As the days slowly slip by it is just one more calandered X closer to her homecoming, albeit a brief 3-month period, and to the time when I will be enveloped with uncontrollable glee. Words cannot describe how excited I will be when I get to see her again. I am giddy as I sit here pounding out the words on my keyboard.
***To take an opposing stance against my own self-proclaimed pessimistic blog, this weekend is Pride & I couldn't be more ready for an AWESOME weekend. (Hypocritical: see my usage of the word awesome) That is all.
6.17.2009
I am heaven sent, don't you dare forget...
#995
This is not-so-awesome, yet in a hypocritically awesome listed format:
- the cost of Red Bull (ridiculous, i need my beverage like a crack addict needs a hit *cue whitney houston...bobbay!)
- myself not sharing life with you
- thunderstorms so severe that the booms knock multiple items off of my walls at home & lightning comes through the
outlets in my bedroom a-glowin'
- having to pretend to be 'busy' at work when in fact we are so slow that it compares to that of watching a comatose
patient in a hospital & expecting him to get up & do a jig
- people who call me a 'grandma' simply because i am not out every fucking weeknight until the wee hours of the
morning. (sorry, i have a career to work at. get a job, grow up & fuck off)
- how i long to get another tattoo but lack $$. as it is a need that will never be fulfilled no matter how many i have.
- that both of my roommates will be moving out relatively close to one another this fall....that means i'm FUCKED.
- once again, my inability to be able to acquire a second job, part-time. ugh.
- my jealousy at those that work but do not have student loans. thus, their mountain of free $$ to do with as they wish.
There are things in my head that I wish I could say, could do, to show you who I am now. I wish I could fill you with a sense of security, of trust, to let you know that I want everything in the world for you, the best of the best. Fuck.....
This is not-so-awesome, yet in a hypocritically awesome listed format:
- the cost of Red Bull (ridiculous, i need my beverage like a crack addict needs a hit *cue whitney houston...bobbay!)
- myself not sharing life with you
- thunderstorms so severe that the booms knock multiple items off of my walls at home & lightning comes through the
outlets in my bedroom a-glowin'
- having to pretend to be 'busy' at work when in fact we are so slow that it compares to that of watching a comatose
patient in a hospital & expecting him to get up & do a jig
- people who call me a 'grandma' simply because i am not out every fucking weeknight until the wee hours of the
morning. (sorry, i have a career to work at. get a job, grow up & fuck off)
- how i long to get another tattoo but lack $$. as it is a need that will never be fulfilled no matter how many i have.
- that both of my roommates will be moving out relatively close to one another this fall....that means i'm FUCKED.
- once again, my inability to be able to acquire a second job, part-time. ugh.
- my jealousy at those that work but do not have student loans. thus, their mountain of free $$ to do with as they wish.
There are things in my head that I wish I could say, could do, to show you who I am now. I wish I could fill you with a sense of security, of trust, to let you know that I want everything in the world for you, the best of the best. Fuck.....
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